I can’t focus
Motivation is gone
I feel empty, alone
I try to to things I enjoy but the follow through of motivation is waning.
I will browse online and pick fabric, for example to make my daughter a dress but when it arrives I just can’t seem to get myself to sit down and start working on it.
It’s not that I don’t want to.. because I really do but I just feel so empty and hallow. Like there’s invisible weights around my neck.
I’m exhausted all the time and in a mental fog but I got 9 hours of sleep last night. It’s strange not sure if I am disassociating again or not as one day bleeds into the next.
Even now thoughts are drifting back and forth….
I want a cup of tea,. My jaw hurts… Ugh ok I think I’m going to go back to sleep.